Sometimes i feel lost like i dont know which way is the right way. and somehow i always choose the wrong direction which leads me to nowhere.
I always think that my choices are going to be good ones and i soon come to realise that its not always a good decision.
I wish it were easy to choose the right and leave the wrong behind but even when i think ill leaving the wrong behind it seems too creep on back towards me.
Some paths that i have chosen had led me to tears and heartbreak and pin i cannot explain. but i know that with God and family and even the friends i have eventually all the hurt anger and heartbreak will go away. or i will put it in the back of my mind and forget until one day i will remember and it will mean nothing to me.
I wish i could do that with you already. but I’m slowly pushing you back there and forgetting. i hate that its not just one of you there is two. one i wish was civil and ther other i dont now what or who you are anymore. not a friend i know that.
But slowly but surly i am forgetting both. and i am in a place in my life right now where i am pretty content. i dont need to know what or who you are with. and that makes me very happy.
I just keep rambling on i think i will close this up with